Nyquil Confessions
11:13 pm ..at home feeling like a patient ..that nyquil got me real drownsy ..lol….no wrk 2day ..i was supposed 2 go 2 skool but i just dipped on that 4 no reason …idk …sumtimes i wonder wat it all really means like why even try wen ur goin 2 end up in the same place …my depression is overwhelming …..next thought -
wrk 2mar {ugh}… i hate my job but i love money ..i guess i shud be happy 4 myself … but iam in 2 deep 2 feel anything ….i been writing a lil more but somehow i feel that my small attempts r useless without my mpc ….still tho i love music ..i feel itz the only thing that i have wen all else is uncertain…..i saw her thoughts 2day they were interesting ….itz even better in person ….i wonder if she wud ever go 4 me but then my insecurity kicks in and iam back 2 my self again …..amsterdam …itz okay u can run and tell my city iam on….next thought
i wonder why ppl i dont even kno have so much power over me …itz dosnt make sense ……i guess thats life ..pain and pleasure all in one ..but for me i feel more than the adverage person, no one understands that ….but they will one day i guess……my dayz r goin fast and i dont think i can handle it …i guess itz the substance abuse… “A”
-Nyquil Confessions
